I like studying. But at my own pace & own will. But can I? Apparently not. Look at the thick, disgusting stacks of things I have to finish up! And ... suddenly just taking a step back to look at certain stuffs. Like whether certain relationships will last. I do want the friendship thing to last, real long, so that the bond will stay & the company will form. (: It'll really be very interesting 10 years down the road. And also, the BOMBers ... but there seems to be differences, yet. And also, the fam. Am really clueless or what to do. I want to lessen the load, but I dont know how I can, at this rate where everything just don't seems to be right. Huix feared that ... it didn't come to him, at least, I think ... but its coming to me ... being all screwed up :/I need a good outlet of destress!!! Jog? No time. Swim? No time. This, that ... blehh. Everyone else seems pretty cool with stuffs around though, which is good I guess?

:/ Aye, whatvever. Main point here is, I cannot focus! :/
What's new.

I desperately need the beach.

Alright, looking forward to Sat! (: Suckseas girls' outing!
& whenever I can stay over at the oh-so-attractive-new-apartment Jialin promotes about!

God above, please make me focus & persevere.
Amen.
11:03PM

Been thinking, & thinking & thinking & thinking. What is genuine. What isn't. Is our friendship genuine at all? In any sense? Or, can it be more than just the friendship ... or is it just the lesser of that. How do you face critics. How do you face that. How would you better that situation. How would do that. Objectivity is certain. Sheesh. Chaos reign within. Mental voyeurism, by a certain stranger my mum just bumped into. Scary thought. "Quite smart, guy-ish character, too committed person. " I am rough cause I dont want to get bullied. But I do love being girlish alright. & I think I really like you ... but so what.

Ain't blogging sense now. Shall bathe. I wanna help dad. But I really dont know how. I feel useless.