Anyhows, I am really worried sick for my subjects. First paper in October. 6 months away. My Year One work has totally been neglected, I managed to promote due to sheer luck ... & my Year Two work ain't getting nowhere. Still holding on to 4 subjects, as yet. I was coping fine. At least last year. And now looking at my grades ... I can very well conclude ... I seriously cannot seem to study. I admit. My mugging sessions were quite futile. Just thinking about things all the time. Eyes fixed on the notes. Yet mind's flying to somewhere else.
CLA is a challenge to me, since my chinese isn't very well-foundationed. Lost the knack for chinese halfway through Upper Primary stage. But the literature part of it really intrigues me & they (seniors & fellow classmates & teachers alike) say its all about memorizing. Memorizing ... all the wonderful stuffs, I haven't exactly let myself get a go at it, at least thats what I think. But I really really do enjoy the literature part cause the lessons seem to be a relaxation as compared to the other subjects. Just that I do have a little difficulty in the language. & of course the discipline in memorizing & constant reading of the topic.
Mathematics/Chemistry is a must have in my combination. Both of them are cool, just that I dont really have the knack for them. I never had the knack for maths, like wise in Secondary School ... it was thanks to my last minute tuition teacher & the knock of reality that got me drilling in mathematics for O levels. From F9 to A1, a miracle occured ... but really worried sick if the miracle would occur again. Chemistry was my pet subject in Secondary School cause it was so easy & my teacher was a sweet darling! But Chemistry in A levels is like so freaking boring & so totally redundant! Like heck do I care about the spastic reactions .... & I find it quite hard to actually remember the exact terminologies they want us to be well equipped in.
Biology's like really great a subject. Been interested in it since Lower Secondary days & always wanting to study it! However, its in super big chunks & its always been poorly scored by the entire level ... AHHH. But, it is relevant. At least, its interesting.
I ... have no idea, if I should drop.
Zhenyou was citing that I should think far & see what my visions are.
Well, I do want to either pursue a pathway in Medicine or just deal with Arts & Social Sciences (like Mass Comm) ... for Medicine, it'll be a plus to have 4 subjects... even though I do not have any S papers. And that will be the pathway IF i do manage to acquire a scholarship since I dont really think I have the financial means to actually pursue that.
And if conditions are not favourable, I'll probably venture into any to deal with Arts & Socical Sciences & my base in CLA would probably help me ... in a way.
Two extreme conditions of the future.
I know I'd just venture into entrepreneur-ing, definitely, setting up new companies when there's the presence of a capital ... Anyhows, back to point.
I have 4 subjects. No S papers. Yet I want to not let go of it. I love them. Or, to put in simply, the subjects that I will drop are those that is super relevant & must-haves. Yet, I am worried sick. Any comments? What should I do...! Hahx.
11:08PM
"When the music ends, the dance stops.
And the partners hold each other's hands & says, "Its destiny."
And when the music starts again, they change partners and a new dance begins.
There they say again, "Its fate.""
--- Sakura Hitomi
4:40PM 
