You know,
I acutally DO enjoy studying cause it just fills me in with so many perspectives (CLA), so many insights on how the world works (Bio) & how people manipulate science to manufacture stuffs (Chem) ... & how the numbers, 123456789 & alphabets (yeah, all 26 of them), along with weird symbols can actually turn out to be such a nice "essay" piece (Maths). Yet ... I really hate it because you've just got to have so much patience, & so much shut-out from the outside world. I hate the way it shuts me off from the world. And how formatted it has become that learning isn't as enjoyable as when we were young. I am moving at a very, very, very slow pace. And in 2 more days, I am taking my first paper. Woa. And I am like half way through only, forgetting this terminology and that mechanism when I pick up new ones. And yes, occasionally popping into LaLaLand when I don't even want to. Tsk. Feeling disheartened. :/